Because it's our calling...

   It's almost 1:30 in the morning and I'm finding sleep most difficult. So many thoughts are swirling through my head as I do a playback of this week, So much sadness, disappointment and anger in regards to the missing children case we are working on and the little girl in North Carolina who was taken from her home. It's times like these that the frustration over our "gifts" can become unbearable. To know what we know and to have no one listen well...it almost breaks you. I don't think I can fully explain how helpless that makes you feel.

   The only bright spot, in a week full of darkness, has been the people of the "community". Ya'll don't know this, because we don't care to advertise our private business, but MANY mystics, psychics, sensitives, mediums and intuitive's have come together this week. Through private messages we have talked, shared information, passed our readings along and collaborated to try and find this latest missing child. With absolutely no regard for notoriety, acknowledgement or accolades we came together. Our purpose drove us to reach out to strangers. To place ourselves, and our gifts, in another's hands and trust them that they would handle it with care. Do you know why?

   Because something much bigger than any one of us was at the forefront. Children. Plain and simple. Our love for children was bigger than ego, money or fame. You don't see this very often as this field is known for people hoarding information so that they can say "they figured it out". This week this was not the case and I am so unbelievably thankful for that. I feel so incredibly blessed to know the people I do. To know, that during times like these, people will come together and use whatever the Gods blessed them with for the greater good. It warms my heart and actually brings tears to my eyes.

   I would be remiss if I didn't also mention the non paranormal hero's who have stayed in the shadows but have provided information and aid to us. From law enforcement, both retired and active, to research wizards who are relentless in their quest for answers...we thank you. From the bottom of our hearts. You have no idea how much your support means to us. We will do our damnedest to not disappoint you. 

   One last bit before I sign off.....

   To our haters and those who wish to see us fail...

   THANK YOU.

   Your unwilling support drives us, as well. Bet you didn't know that....

   Blessed Be )o(

It's been a while...

   I know...I know...I've been AWOL for a while. Honestly, life has just been too busy. Between my family, the show, investigations and the new book coming out I just haven't had the time to devote to my written blog. I hope to rectify that as writing brings me an extreme amount of pleasure. It's cleansing to the soul, ya know? Plus...it is an easy way to share what all has been going on with all of ya'll who may not see the Facebook live-feeds or my You Tube channel. 

   It was a little over a week ago the investigation in Moundsville, Va. I have to admit...I'm quite blessed. I got to spend that time, both investigating and just hanging, with the people who make my soul smile. The only downfall was that my son wasn't there. The prison only allows 18 and up so it just wasn't possible. We all missed him so much. You see, that's the beauty of the "gang". We truly appreciate each other. Our eccentricities...our differences. Even if we don't see eye to eye, the love is always there. We trust each other without question. I can't express to you how important that is in this field. It's rare. 

   I watch. I take in everything. I may not mention it but I notice it. I know how lucky we are...how lucky I am. Same with my peeps in England. We always have each others backs. Same with my girls from 3 Fold. It never leaves my mind how uncommon this is. Having this support system gives me the freedom to do what I do...regardless of how crazy or "out there" it may seem. I know there have been scary moments. I know that I have frightened those who care about me. But even when they've gotten angry over my need to run, head first, into dangerous situations...they've never left me hanging. Never let me fall. I have mentioned many times, on interviews I've done, how I don't recommend doing what I do. Channeling comes with a risk. When you do this you are opening yourself up to whatever spirit/entity/ghost to hop on in and take you for a ride. If the thought of that doesn't scare you I don't know what will. There are no guarantees on how this experience will turn out. There are no guarantees that you won't be injured or harmed in any way. There is absolutely NO WAY to know the outcome before it happens. 

   And I like it that way. 

   Just like the investigations of old, when I would be picked up and told nothing of a location, doing things this way gives me...and whomever I'm working with...the best possible reading. Having no knowledge, prior to the investigation, ensures that the information I'm giving is accurate. I honestly still don't fully understand how it works, and that's ok. I don't need to understand. I think that's part of the rush for me. I truly feel most comfortable when I am able to speak for/to those that others can't. Aside from being a mother, which is my number one love in life, and writing which is my 2nd...it is my 3rd favorite thing to do. It's what I was born to do. I know that now. I will never doubt it again. And I'm so grateful for those who stay by my side and encourage me to do it. To be me. 

   Love ya'll more than you know. 

   Blessed Be )o(

Into The Abyss...

   I've been absent for a while and. for that, I'm sorry. Life has just been so crazy between finishing the last book, travel, investigations and art pieces. And it's getting ready to get a little crazier, folks. 

   You see...in 7 days I will be flying to New Jersey...then driving to Pennsylvania...then driving to New York. What has been a year and a half in the making is coming to fruition. I will be joining a group of girls as we embark on a quest for truth. For justice. After spending the night at the "Horsefly Chronicles" house, in Pennsylvania, we will be heading out to Stanten Island to try and find some answers for Julia Siracusa...a childhood friend of Holly Ann Hughes. Holly went missing 35 years ago this July 15th. Although the case is officially closed, we believe, there is a very real chance that clues to where, and with whom, she was taken were overlooked. And we have three days to do it. 

   I fully expect all of this to take it's toll on us. Julia Siracusa, Rachel Wagner, Gina Johnson and myself will have our plates full. As for the night in the "Horsefly Chronicles" house, we will attempt to do something no one has ever done before. No...I will not go into details. Lol. I will say that it won't be the "standard" Q&A in the portal room. No sir. Will we find answers? I don't know. Will we try? Hellz yeah!!

   After we step foot on the SI we will hit the ground running. No stone un-turned. No question not asked. No lead not checked. We are on a mission. One I hope you will join us on. If you haven't already followed our page regarding this case...please do so on Facebook. You just have to request to join and we will promptly approve you. Our page is called "III Fold Paranormal" in regards to the Three Fold Law of projecting and receiving. We will keep ya'll as up to date as possible in regards to information, evidence and paranormal activity associated with these cases. Your support will not go unnoticed and is appreciated more than we can adequately tell you. We will need it, folks. The energy in the area is like nothing most of us have ever encountered. The emotional, mental and physical state of those who still inhabit some of these locations (in spirit) is beyond indescribable. The ground is literally soaked in anguish. 

Blessed Be )0( 

#JusticeForHolly

Just listen...

   I made a video blog concerning this, earlier, but thought a written explanation would be a good idea for those who follow my blog. I've been asked, many times, over the years why people have such a hard time receiving messages from deceased loved ones. I've always explained that most people DO get messages but, due to growing older and losing our innocence, we tend to rationalize away the clues we get. If I've seen it once I've seen it 1000 times but I've always lacked a good example to prove my point. 

   Until last night. 

   Yesterday Gwen, from Beyond Perception Investigators, and myself were discussing previous cases we investigated while I was in Virginia the last time. It's become crystal clear that we have to return to these locations, due to some recent activity, and we were discussing new information that has come to light. This is where we have started to connect the dots. 

   You see, before my previous trip to Virginia, the weeks leading up to it had become very eventful for both myself and the BPI team. Everything that happened appeared choreographed to guarantee our coming together. That is until I was actually on my way there. From delayed flights, to cancelled flights to flat tires..every roadblock you could imagine was being thrown in our way. It was very hard to try and keep a positive outlook when it seem "the devil himself" had other plans for us. I use that term loosely but it truly does fit. 

   Needless to say...we got it done. We came together...kicked some ass...suffered immensely and called it a day. The recovery time was long, painful and emotionally draining. We even contemplated giving up the whole "paranormal thing".

   But we didn't. In fact...months back we decided that I would come back, this time bringing my son, and we would do some "light" investigating and make a trip to Virginia Beach for fun. Have you ever heard the saying about "best laid plans...?" Yeah.....

   That's what brings me to last night. After we slid more pieces of this paranormal puzzle into place we started to see a similar pattern forming. Between unexpected deaths (connected to our area of interest) and additional research uncovering more confirmation of what we had already felt, we decided to call it a night. I had to work early this morning and needed a lil rest. 

   Not that I was going to get it. Lol! Noooooo......because as soon as I went into my room I turned on Netflix. I found a show that I was interested in and picked a random episode. It wasn't on 5 minutes before a name was mentioned. The same name of one of the persons we had JUST been discussing before we hung up. A person who has been deceased a very long time but is in need of closure. A person we want desperately to help. 

   And there was her name. Ironically, the character in this show was also dealing with an overbearing, violent father, and was the same age as the girl we are trying to help. I needed no further confirmation that we were on the right track. 

  People...these are the messages I speak of. The dead, in whatever way they can, will find a way to reach you. It may not be what you want. They maybe can't sit down next to you and hold your hand. They may not be able to be vocal in ways you need. 

   But they WILL find ways. Something as simple as a name on a random show picked in the middle of the night. You just have to listen. Don't discount your gut. Don't rationalize away a possible message because society says you're crazy if you don't. I'm not saying to run out and call the news if something like this happens, not at all. What I am saying is keep track of it. Write it down. Give them a chance to be heard by respecting their effort. I knew, in that moment, Rebecca was trying to reach me. I have no doubt. Now all we gotta do is figure out the rest of the message. One things for certain..I'll damn sure be listening. 

   Blessed Be )O(

Just so it's clear...(written blog)

   I made a video blog last night but I'm going ahead with a written blog too. I feel it's necessary to reach as many people as possible. 

   Yesterday, on facebook, I posted some very good news. News regarding a missing persons case I read for. I normally keep all my readings private as they carry sensitive, personal, information, but I was so damn happy that this person was found alive that I had to share. I ended my post with "Blessed Be )O(". Common, really, for a Pagan. No harm there as it's the standard, respectful way, to do it. Right?

   Apparently wrong. 

   In this day and age I can't believe that doing something so simple can leave you wide open for persecution. Yes...you heard right. I was soon assailed by comments from one particular person who felt it necessary to inform me that if I was not doing what I do in the name of Jesus that I HAD to be doing it in the name of Satan. 

   Go ahead, laugh...I know I did. 

   Apparently these were my only two choices in the matter. Jesus or Satan. Funny.....I don't see it that way. I would like to start off by saying I fully support peoples religious, political, sexual beliefs. I don't judge. PERIOD. One might say that is very "christian" of me. And you would be right as, from what I know of the teachings, that is how it's supposed to be. Unfortunately, and I speak from experience, that is rarely the case with zealots. They judge all day long!

   I handled everything well, truly. I stayed polite because that's how I was raised. But polite doesn't mean quiet. Not for this southern woman. I especially won't stay quiet after this persons wife jumped on the feed and posted innuendo concerning myself and the first, and only, time I met her husband. I can only assume it was to shed some kind of illicit light on me making me look bad. 

   Didn't work cause I called that shit out and shut it down. Ya'll know by now I don't mince words. 

   My point is this....no one...and I mean NO ONE...has the right to tell you how you should believe, feel, love, live if you are not hurting anyone. 

   EVER.

   Nor do they have a right to insinuate that your intentions are anything other than pure if you are doing what you do to help people. My beliefs are simple. If you are helping others I don't give a rats ass, one single fuck, if you are doing it in the name of Jesus, Allah, Buddah or a fucking pack of ketchup. I don't care if you get on your knees EVER night and worship a bottle of hot dog relish. I don't. As long as you are not hurting any body. As long as you are helping people. 

   You see...I could have pulled the "religious pissing contest" card and informed him that my religion out dates his by a long shot...but I didn't. I don't roll that way. I have no need to "pull rank" or try to belittle another person. But...I will not tolerate condescension, innuendo or ulterior motives  by a cohort (like promoting a book) on my feed. PERIOD. To do what was done is no different than racial slurs, if I was of a different race, or homophobic slurs, if I were homosexual. People like this think they can get away with it because it's all in the name of religion. You know how I know? Cause this was last night....and I woke up to it still going on on my facebook post. 

   Some people....

   To the rest of ya'll....BLESSED BE )O(

Just so it's clear....VIDEO BLOG

https://youtu.be/PjqicbJ0vbA

ParaSchool is in session, peeps...

   It's been a bit (*cough*...over 20 something years) since I've been in school but I kinda remember what it was like. Especially English class. There was this thing we did, you know, where you learn the definition of words. Really cool cause it gives us a case of the smarts. Anywhoo......

   I decided to "go back to school" and implement that wonderful thing called "educating oneself". After all the hubbub on social media as of late, and the pissing contest between the paranormal peeps and the skeptics, I figured we could ALL use a bit o' learning. So...I pulled out the trusty dictionary, just kidding...I googled the Cambridge dictionary, and looked up the prefix "para". Imagine my surprise when I learned that it did not mean "ghost"! Or "medium". Or "clairvoyant". Or "EVP". Or...and the list goes on an on.

   No..to my surprise (just kidding, I already knew this) it means...and I may paraphrase a bit..."alongside or beyond what is considered normal". That is the definition of paranormal. Something that is alongside, or beyond what may be considered normal. Wow.

   I mean double WOW!!! And all this time...who knew??? Whoodathunkit???

   Now...here's where it gets interesting, folks. According to the same dictionary the definition of "normal" is ordinary or usual. How cool is that??

   Are you following my line of thinking on this? Oh...I hope you are! My point is very simple. What is ordinary or usual, normal, to one person may NOT be ordinary, usual or normal to another. It is all very subjective. The world is made up of three types of people. One type that simply cannot step out of their conformist box for fear their reality may be crushed. The second type of person is the type that sets the box on fire for fear of being contained. The third type, which is the majority of the folks I now in the paranormal field, is the type who straddles the side of the box. They keep one foot grounded in reality and the other waving in the air, free. It's these people, these minds, that are the innovators. The explorers. The dreamers. The healers.

   The future.

   If you know anything about history you will know that some of the most brilliant and forward thinking minds were thought to be one shade shy of crazy. Yet, without them, imagine where we would be now? Albert Einstein, to name one.

   What I also found fascinating, and I strongly encourage reading it, is the article "The Science Behind Psychic Phenomena" in Time Magazine. This was an interview of a former Harvard Professor, Dianne Hennacy, who wrote "The ESP Enigma: The Scientific Case For Psychic Phenomena".

   I just thought it prudent to throw this out there. Especially with so many "keyboard vigilantes" out there trying to shove everyone back in their boxes. I'm guessing it gets lonely in there.

   Blessed Be )O(

I hate being a bitch, but....

   I'm annoyed, peeps. Not really angry just mildly peeved. But...peeved enough to write a smidge about it. Ya'll know the rules, now. You need not agree with me, nor do you have to read it...BUT...if you are in the paranormal field I highly recommend it.

   We all know I stand by my word. No one can question that. So...I'm standing by my previous blog stating I call BULL SHIT when I see it. One of the teams I work with, a team I hold near and dear to my heart, was ambushed by some low life named Jon Donnis on twitter today.

   Yep...I did it...I called the jerk out by name. I was willing to let "wanna be, attention seeking, spewing vomit from the mouth dogs lie"... but I just couldn't. Not after I was informed, by a third party, about a blog written about this team calling them fakes. Needless to say, anyone who knows me KNOWS I refuse to work with people I think may be faking evidence/gifts. I have made myself CRYSTAL CLEAR on this. Sooooooo...... I thought I would set the record straight because I honestly have to believe that this "person" may just be having a bad day and was looking to take it out on somebody. You know me...ALWAYS willing to give the benefit of the doubt.

   First...in his blog he states that he was presented a link to view evidence by NP Paranormal. This is true. What he failed to mention, an oversight on his part I'm sure, was that he contacted NP Paranormal, out of the blue, and asked them if they had any evidence he could view. He even stated that he was a skeptic trying to debunk. Guess what...they kindly sent him the links. You know why? Cause they stand behind their work. Oh...did I mention that their footage is all taken LIVE with viewers watching on Livestream? Yeah...kinda hard to fake with people watching the screen like a hawk, but that's neither here nor there.

   Apparently this paragon of paranormal skepticism...this self-proclaimed "World renowned skeptic"...(never heard of him...nor has anyone else that's been in the field for decades, that I know...trust me...I asked) couldn't figure out which videos to watch. He stated that most paranormal videos are too boring to watch and wanted to know the precise time that any apparition was caught. NP Paranormal, again, kindly supplied him with what he asked for. This was when he began to "debunk" in such a rude manner that even I was shocked. Yep...lil ol me. Shocked down to my very bloomers.

   I couldn't help but wonder why someone who was so polite, while ASKING for the evidence, would be so rude after he viewed it. First off...any idiot, yep I said it...idiot, can look up anyones paranormal videos on You Tube. They can even comment on them. It makes one wonder why he would deliberately seek out a team, engage them in conversation in an unassuming manner, then turn around and bash them when they never had to give him the time of day in the first place. Smells like an ambush to me, folks. A big, stinky, poo ambush. Funny thing...he tried to do it with me, as well. Asking me if I was aware of what orbs were? Well...I'm no scientist, Jon...so I don't claim to know what orbs really are.  However...I can ask the scientist, who is also a paranormal investigator, I interviewed Tuesday night on a show I co-host. I'll be sure to post the findings when I get them.

   This fellow also tried to start a line with my dear friend, Gwen Clapper, from Beyond Perception Investgators stating...and I quote..." I have all the knowledge in the world on ouija boards. Nothing to do with paranormal. It's an old ideomotor board game." End quote. Well...there you have it folks...the end all, be all, have all authority on ouija boards sought out my buddy...unsolicited. We are SO proud and honored.

   NOT.

   To quote Gwen, and this is one of the many reasons I love her, she tweeted..." If someone claims to know everything about anything...run the opposite direction. It's a red flag of self delusion." Don't ya just lover her? She calls it like she see's it. Can't be a hater on that!

   As for the debunking, let me make myself clear again...I encourage it. Strongly. One of the reasons I work with the few teams I do is that they try to debunk their own evidence first. Both NP and BPI are known, and respected, for that. So that everyone can get on the same page, one of the videos he "debunked" was the black mist apparition on the abandoned hospital footage. I think the whole video is less than two minutes long but junior still needed help finding it. He states, not theorizes, but STATES with authority that it is vape mist from a vapor cigarette. Well...I like bubbles, and I truly hate to burst them, but even though I know it's BULL SHIT...I gave this "person" the benefit of the doubt and made a few calls. Guess what, folks? Are you guessing? Shit...I hope you get this right....

   If you guessed that there is no such thing as black mist vape than you are CORRECT!!! I even called about 8 vape stores to confirm that such a thing did not exist. Funny how easy that was...

   He then questioned another video about an anomaly, caught on Livestream, running diagonal across the bottom of the screen. He laughed that it was a video taken off a tv screen.

   Hey...brain child...that was MY video. I was watching the entire thing LIVE on my phone...saw it happen (even though the guys didn't)...pulled it up on my TV and filmed it to send to them. Yeah...thought so....

   One last thing and then I plan to settle in for the night. My friends were called "wanna be most haunted newbies". First off...I have worked with them for almost two years and they were together for a year before that. I've even been to England to investigate with them...LIVE, btw. Guess what...no faking. As for "most haunted wanna-be's"...do you actually research anything before you write about it? Honest question, I'm really curious. The reason I ask is that if you did, and I sincerely hope you do, you would know it was their footage taken at the Pontifract Poltergiest House that brought attention to the alleged fakery perpetrated by Most Haunted. Viewers who had seen NP's footage a while before Most Haunteds, caught the discrepancy, and it was all over twitter. Might wanna check into that.

   The original team of NP Paranormal was Karl Porter, Dave Newton, Abby Thompson and Richard Burrows. These four people caught some of the most amazing evidence I have ever seen and I've been doing this my whole life, pretty much. Although Karl is not as active a member, and Richard is no longer with the group I stand behind every piece of evidence they have collected. I do this because I trust them. They EARNED it. I have watched this team, along with Beyond Perception Investigators, debunk their own stuff. If they have any doubts they leave it up to the people watching to decide but they will still state, very clearly, that they think it isn't paranormal.

   Again, for the record, I strongly encourage skepticism. I know, first hand, that their are some fakers out there. What I cannot, and will not, tolerate is someone using internet muscle to bash good people. I think we sometimes forget how easy it is to sit behind a screen and state we KNOW something. We may even call ourselves experts. Well...I won't, but some might. Lol. But...until you actually conduct an investigation trying to re-create a situation, to debunk paranormal activity you disagree with...you are NOT an expert. You're a douche with a keyboard and way too much time on your hands. Just sayin...

Paranormal "little ones"...

   Last year a dear friend of mine, Dave Newton from NP Paranormal in Sheffield England, came to me with an idea for a blog. I knew right away that I wanted to do it but I didn't have the time till now.  He reminded me of something that I had long forgotten about, or had at the very least, put in the back of my mind. The effect the paranormal has on children. Primarily speaking of children with special "gifts".

   I touched upon some of the things that these children deal with in both of my books but not as much as I should have. The messages and emails I've received from parents confirms that. The big question most parents have about special children is how to tell if they are really "special". Well...my stock answer is ALL kids are special. That's not going to change...however...I understand they mean it in an entirely different way.

   They mean it in the spooky way. The way that makes their child an outcast, at least in the eyes of mundane society. It honors me that people feel comfortable enough to pose these questions to me. That I've built up a level of trust with those who know my work making them value my opinion. This is NOT something I take lightly so I will answer it here so that others, who I haven't been contacted by, can maybe find some peace as well.

   Being a special child is tricky business. From the child standpoint you don't know you are different. You fully expect others to see/hear/smell/taste/feel/know the things you do. You show no surprise when something strange happens because you simply know nothing different. It's the "norm" for you. You, with an open heart and innocence only a child can have, expect to be able to share what you are experiencing with the people closest to you.

   As the parent of a special child this is all the exact opposite.  If the parent is not gifted in a similar manner they can become frightened of what their child shares with them. If the child does it in the presence of others you can become embarrassed. You may even be afraid of being judged by something beyond your control. Don't beat yourself up, mom and dad, these feelings are normal. How could you possibly know any different if you have not been affected the same way? You may even think that your child is making things up to get attention. And you know what? Some may be doing just that. Again...totally normal.

   What parents need to do is listen to the children. Watch their behavior. If you expect that your child may be gifted, keep a log of what they tell you. If none of it adds up you may have a future fictional author on your hands. A weaver of webs, spinner of yarns, if you will. And that's ok. Some parents may feel relief and some may be disappointed over this. Not uncommon, either way.

   But....

   If you start to record your child's behavior and you notice their accuracy. Their ability to know things they have no possible way of knowing...prepare yourself. If this is the case you will be embarking on a very rough road. Your first instinct may be to shout it from the rooftops at how "special" your child is.

   Please do NOT do this.

   Children have a rough enough time of things under normal circumstances. You add being, what society calls, a freak...or better yet...a FAKE...into the mix, you are going to have a very sad child on your hands.

   Trust me.

   What I recommend....what I am begging you to do...is protect your child. If they have these gifts, nurture them. Talk to them. Comfort them, when needed. To fully accept themselves, when society CLEARLY doesn't, takes YEARS. For myself...it took DECADES. I ran the whole gambit on negative feelings and destructive behavior before I finally said, fuck it, I don't care what others think of me. It took over 40 years before I came to the conclusion that my life, and they way I lived it, did NOT require approval from anyone. I will do a private reading, sketch a drawing, give a read on a pic on the internet...if I so choose...and don't give a rats ass what anyone thinks about it. All I can do is use my "gift" in the most honorable way I know and let the chips fall where they may.

   But this took a very long time, folks. Truly.

   So...for those curious...re-read the post. Memorize it. Soak it in. Be careful of divulging what your child can do but encourage and support their journey. Let them grow into a strong person who can remain unaffected by the pariahs of society who want to use, then ridicule, them. They will know when they are truly ready. Remember...it's their journey. You're just the lucky one who gets to watch this miracle unfold.

   Blessed Be )O(

 

2016: A year in review...

   As I sit here, typing away, I can't help but reflect on the past year and what it has taught me. Set backs, building blocks and waves of emotion have been, just a few, of the things I have had to overcome this year. And I've done it. Not always with grace and style...but I've done it. 

   I stepped out of my "broom closet" a while back. I walked into a world full of egos, lies, deceit, multiple faces and cowardice. But...I was also greeted by loving arms, hope, wonder, friendship and...most of all...acceptance. For every one negative encounter I've had, I can honestly say I've been blessed by positive ones ten times more. 

   For a year that started out horribly, it has blossomed by leaps and bounds, into a life that is beyond my wildest hopes and dreams. In the past year I have had the extreme pleasure of hopping on a plane, with my best friend, and heading off to England. There we spent time, with some of the most fabulous people I know, investigating and exploring. Eating and talking. Taking photos of amazing places and realizing our dreams. I even got to "rub elbows" with some REALLY TV network peeps and investigate one of the most haunted placed in England with them. 

   Dreams, people. Only in my dreams would I ever think this was possible. Yet...it happened. 

   I also explored on my own, via the train in Scotland, and made my way to Glasgow to see a dear friend. You'll read about that in the book and, yes, you have permission to laugh at my antics and clumsiness. In fact...I encourage it! Lol!

   The day I left England was an eye opener for me as it revealed one more piece of the puzzle that is my life. Read the book if you wanna know what I'm talking about. Lol. I won't disclose that here. I will only say this...my date of departure was not a secret. 

   After coming home I began to work on my 3rd book, "Walking With Ghost". As I'm sure you all know by now the title has two meanings. One being the spirits I walk with everyday and two...the ghost of decisions made that we ALL walk with. The choices we make, and the subsequent follies or fantasies from them, shape us in one way or another. Every little thing we do sets us up for the next moment, the next adventure, of our lives. Be it good or bad depends solely on us. Remember that. 

   Not long after I came home I was set to jet off to Virginia where I would investigate with another fantastic group. Just like my peeps in England and Scotland, I have a strong connection to my Virginia folk. We have seen each other through controversy, heartache, betrayal and strife. We have been each others virtual shoulder to cry on and "spewing profanities" sounding board. 

   We are each others rock. True story. 

   While in Virginia I learned just how painful my "gift" can be. I learned, the hard way, that I cannot do it all on my own. I learned that I am fragile. That I can be taken down, by this "gift', and that I shouldn't be afraid to reach out to stronger arms than my own. I learned...in truth...that I'm not alone. I honestly can't tell you how much that means to me. I cried so hard leaving. 

   A couple months later I took my son to New Orleans. I wanted him to see the beauty in the place I love so much. To feel the vibe that I feel when I'm down there. New Orleans is the place that makes my heart beat just a little faster. My blood run a little hotter. My soul shines there and I love it. I am welcomed with open arms by both the living and the dead. It is home. Simple as that. 

   Back in Oklahoma things got a little exciting, as well. Which is funny cause this place is anything BUT exciting. Lol! Just a while back my editor and publisher was contacted by "Ghost Adventures". They wanted to interview him for an upcoming episode. Lovely man that he is, he let me tag along. Afterall, we hadn't seen each other in years (in person) and we needed to catch up. We spent 6 hours on set and I got to meet the fellas and the crew. All in all it was a very nice evening and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Even got a pic with Zac Bagans which, I know, is coveted by many. Lol. Jealous? *wink*

   I'm back in the real world now. Finished the book, we moved our radio show to You Tube with great success and am planning my next adventures. I truly do feel blessed. My appreciation, to those who love me, knows no bounds. In all honesty, I couldn't have done any of this without their support. I only hope I can continue to make you proud. 

A HUGE southern big ol' kiss to these peeps!!!

   Jana Klimek, Mike Rickseker, Gwen and Gene Clapper, Chris Loper, Alyssa Luckett, Kimber Nieman, Laurna Cron, Abby Thompson, Laura Keets, Dave Newton, Karl Porter, Scott Littea, Norene Sampier Balovich, Steven Currie, Fran Molino, Dom Wilkins, Leanne Leveaux, Kathryn Davidson, Sharon Hogden, Joyce Jordan, Jonathan Keepers and many, many more!!! There is NO WAY I can list everyone but I want ya'll to know how much you all mean to me!!
   

Just an update....

   So...I've been off social media (at least not on as much as I normally am) for a while now. I have to say...it's been refreshing. There can be so much drama on here that it honestly drains the soul. I've tried to focus on my art, start a business, and not give a fuck what is going on with other people. 

   I strongly encourage others to do the same. It's amazing what a person can accomplish when they aren't bound by the opinions of others. Unfortunately, the paranormal field is filled with critics. Everywhere you turn there is someone with diarrhea of the mouth trying to discount every little thing you do. As my earlier post specifies...fuck em. Granted...I've always said that if I catch someone faking I will dime them out in a heart beat. That is 100% true. That having been said...I don't cruise the web looking for people to rip apart. 

   I have a life. 

   My life is my son and my art. My paranormal "gift" is something beyond my control but my art is something that comes directly from my soul. Something I take great pride in because it's all mine. Approval not needed...unless you're paying me for it. Lol. Only then does your opinion matter. TRUTH. 

   As for the trolling on twitter to expose people. I liken this to a phrase I heard in a movie a long time ago. It was "The Wedding Planner". I know, I know...not exactly Oscar worthy...but it was a cute movie. Anywhoooo...it was said, in the movie, "those who can't wed, plan!"

   I hate to break it to ya'll but the same theory applies to the paranormal field. It's very easy to sit behind a computer screen, type till your little fingers bleed (cause it's all fast and angry, ya know) and rip people to shreds. Hell...it might even be fun. 

   But....

   You know it doesn't mean shit, right? In the real world....you know what that is, right? It doesn't mean squat. Why, you ask? Well...sit down, kiddos...and I'll clue you in.  

   You see...at least the teams/people that you attack are going out there and doing something. At least they are putting their stuff out there for you to judge cause, trust me, they already know you are going to. AT LEAST they have the balls to put their names and faces on what they do. And every time you go after a team/person all you are doing is giving everyone out there the names of the next person they are gonna follow. You know why? Cause NO ONE trust someone who hides. PERIOD. 

   Now...don't get me wrong...if you have absolute proof (and you know I don't mean absolute OPINION, right?) that someone faked evidence...or you have a good argument on how the evidence COULD have been faked...then by all means expose. But be willing to take the heat when your own identities get revealed. IP addresses are some of the easiest things in the world to uncover. Lol. Now...I personally don't care. Talk shit about me all you want. My rep speaks for itself and I have nothing to hide. But I know some out there who are willing to bet all these new accounts are ran by a couple of bored teenagers. Not really lending a whole lot of credibility your way...just sayin. 

   As for me...I'll be over here...in my little corner...doing my art, working my two jobs (both non paranormal) and helping out teams/individuals as I see fit. I'll be sure to post my "goings on" so you can pull out your "Sherlock Holmes" kit and give me the ol' "what for"....

   Toodles....

Grow up.....

   That's it....I've had it. I am sick and freaking tired of all the "paranormal bullshit" out there. I'm tired of the "fake" ACCTS....I'm tired of the people claiming to "expose" fakers when they are some of the slimiest creatures out there. I'm sick and fucking tired of the claims of "I'm bullied" or "they're jealous of me"! Poor, poor pitiful me, right?

   GROW UP. I don't like fakes, either. So, guess what? I don't fake anything. There...problem solved. Don't like what someone else us doing....don't do it. It REALLY is that simple. For fucks sake people.....get a friggin life!!!!

   If you wanna know what started this it's some lame ass follower calling himself @paranormalfakes claiming to "expose the fakers". This person/group/whatever started following me and some other groups I know. No problem there as we don't fake anything but here's the pickle.....their account is protected so unless we follow them...we have no idea what the hell is being said. Considering the amount of people suffering from "delusions of grandeur" on twitter I consider full disclosure important. Sooooo.....if a twitter acct is hell bent on preaching the gospel truth about others why are they private?

   Yep....I can almost hear the crickets through the silence as y'all process that information. Go ahead....I got a minute...

   So.....I blocked them. Why? Not cause I have anything to hide. Hell...I'm as open a fucking book as they come. Nope...I blocked them because I don't believe in that type of wuss ass, elementary school behavior. I don't play "you show me yours, I'll show you mine". If you're gonna start exposing people start with yourself. Don't hide behind a punk ass mask and a protected account.

 

Vanessa 101...

   Had quite the eventful day! Spent a considerable amount of time watching myself get slandered all over twitter by one particular individual. 

   Yeah...yeah...I know what you're gonna say. Fuck it, right? No worries...already one step ahead of ya. Some people have to live a lie because the truth is just too painful. Thank the Goddess that isn't me. Lol. Honestly, I was more entertained than anything so it wasn't a total loss. Those who care to witness someone burying themselves can go check out my twitter @VanessaRHogle. Feel free to message this person and ask them why their obsession with me seems to have no end. I, for one, would LOVE to know. 

   As for the lesson on myself, and what I believe, I will begin now. I figure it's best coming from me so that no one can get it twisted. 

   I've seen A LOT of talk on what's paranormal and what's not, on social media, lately. Accusations flying back and forth so I figured I would just lay it on the line right here...right now. 

   As far as I'm concerned I do not care one bit if a team makes videos to show their work. I've worked with teams that do only live investigations and those who film and edit later for episodes. I don't have a problem either way as long as the team/individual is honest. Hell...I don't even care if someone wants a TV show...as long as the work remains HONEST. No fake evidence or the like. I'm a simple gal with simple rules. If I find out someone is fake, or being false in ANY WAY, I will pull out completely. Period. Other than that, I don't care. Do what you do...as long as you are contributing real evidence or even if you have an hour of uneventful airtime and I'm bored out of my skull. Keep it honest and I got nothin but love for ya. True story. 

   Just my opinion here, but I think peoples biggest problem with "episodes" and a TV show mentality is the amount of deceit that seems to be involved. The effort put into faking evp's and such. I was told, a year ago, from a previous "member-ish type person" of a well known group exactly how they fake evidence. This was around the time he told me (btw...he used to flirt with me BIG TIME...made me a little uncomfortable as it did my boyfriend at the time) about the threat against me. 

   This well known group, he said, used a technique called "rubbing" to "capture" evp's. From what I understand it means that you hold the evp in your hand and rub your thumb over it to get a noise that you can't hear with your ears but shows up on an evp. Maybe it was called "thumbing". Oh well...one of those two. He also said they faked their photographs and "imprinted' other evp's. Good to know, right? If a team will not put their recorders down during an investigation maybe you should question it? I know I do. Finding out all this from this person PLUS seeing the text sent to him saying one particular member of this team wanted to "put his fist through my skull" made for an interesting little bit. I, of course, posted a screenshot of the text on twitter. That was fun. I think I got blocked after that. Lol. Oh well...bummer. 

   This same person who came across as a confidant, and preached ethics above all else, is now slandering me..along with a few others, on Instagram. Lol. The paranormal shit storm never ends, my beautiful peeps. I was sent a screenshot of the IG saying I "have a face like a bag of arseholes". Was written by my ex boyfriend. Honestly...I think that makes me look pretty good cause he's the one who liked the "arsehole" face. Go figure, lol. What bothers me more is the fact this person is now calling me a fake when he told me I was one of the most accurate psychics he's ever worked with. According to the screenshot my friend sent me of the IG he goes by Haunted Explorations. I'd bet you dollars to donuts that's Kester, himself. Lol. Like I wouldn't recognize the stairway at the Pontefract Poltergeist house! Lol. 

   These are the same people who told me I was being ridiculous for refusing to charge people for readings. Yep...true story. 

   My point is...this is what I know of the paranormal community. Those who are trying to be as real as possible...honest to a fault, really...get shit on. Like today I got called fake, a bully, a stalker, fame hungry and psycho. Ok...I'll concede...I can be a little psycho...but only when pushed. *insert big cheesy grin here* BUT...as for the others...not in a million years. As for the bully part...I stand up for others regardless of what it cost me. As for the stalking part...I was attacked on my own twitter feed from this person I have blocked and am not friends with. She used a way in through a conversation I was having with someone else. 

   So who is stalking who? 

   As for fame hungry...nope. The absolute LAST thing I want. I am perfectly content with how things are right now. My future is the businesses I'm starting. I design one of a kind jewelry pieces, voodoo dolls, make bath bombs, bath salts and chakra balancers. That's my future right there. Of course I will keep doing this as long as I am able...but I will continue to take nothing for it. I am not going to slam anyone who does take money for it but it's not how I do things. My gift, my business. 

   Until the time comes that I can no longer do what I do and benefit others, this is how it will be. Love me or hate me you can't deny this...I don't mince words. If I call you out know that I have reason, and proof, or else the words would never leave my lips. I don't care how rich or fame hungry anyone is...as long as they stay honest in the field. If you can't then get the hell out. That's exactly how I would do it. 

   Blessed Be )O(

   

Oops...I did it again...

   Alright, kiddos...getting ready to throw a little truth your way.  Some may not care for this but, hey, since when has that stopped me, right? Well...I've been watching the banter on social media. Mostly twitter, I suppose. It got me to thinking about a whole lot of stuff and I think I'm gonna share....

   Fact #1:...there are literally THOUSANDS of "paranormal" groups and individuals on social media. 

   Fact #2:...There is NO WAY every one of those groups/individuals are in it for the same reasons. 

   Fact #3:...we won't always agree on everything but the one thing we can agree on is this.....the egos are immense in this field. 

   Let's face it, guys...it's one big spectral "dick judging" contest. Who ever has the biggest ecto-orgasm wins, right? This is what pisses me off about the whole thing and makes me question whether or not I wish to stay in it publicly. But...I'm too big of a loud mouth bitch to go far so I figure I might as well shake things up while i'm here. 

   For those who believe the "paranormal" is not science...well...that may be so...for now. What you can't seem to understand is that there is NOTHING WRONG with wanting the two to be related. Trying to figure out, scientifically, how spirits communicate after death is not a new concept. In fact, the american military/government has had their own experiments involving psychics, remote viewing, and the like. I repeat...THIS IS NOT NEW. 

   Anyone who is involved in this field, for the betterment of it, should welcome questions regarding their evidence. Not slander without merit or unjustified insults...but real questions. And you should be able to back up those questions, and should want to, with your unedited footage. Period. It really is THAT simple. 

   There is also a place for the "entertainment by way of paranormal" teams/individuals out there. No one is saying "go away" to you. At least not if you openly admit that's what you're all about. No shame in that game...as long as your honest. The world could use more entertainment, really. But...if your going to try and pass yourself off as real investigators, sensitives, researchers...you better be able to back it up and expect questions. That's the only way to progress. Put up or shut up, so to speak. 

   I can only speak for myself, and I've said this before, I openly welcome ANYONE to question what I do and how I do it. I strongly recommend verifying the information I give you. I will NEVER claim to be right...EVER. Do I hope I am? Of course I do. Am I usually...ironically, yes. But I could just as easily be wrong. So I don't take offense one little bit if the questions come...just don't be insulting or I'll curse ya. Lol. Just kidding!!

   Maybe...

   Anywhooooo.....before you decide to rip me to shreds (go ahead, I know you wanna) over this blog...ask yourself these questions...

   1) Can I back up my evidence and am willing to disclose all?

   2) Do I want fame or answers...or both? 

   3) Am I willing to be part of a community or do I choose to stand alone so I stand out? 


   Think about it...

   Blessed Be )O(

An open letter....

   It has come to my attention...AGAIN...that I am the topic of conversation (and apparent obsession) of one particular couple. That, for some reason unbeknownst to me, they just can't seem to keep my name out of their mouths. I am going to address this right here...RIGHT NOW...for those who can't wait till the release of my book. 

   On September 29th, 2015, I got my heart broken. Yes...cold bitch that I am got a love boo boo. I had fallen for "the perfect man" months before. I had even began falling for him before my current (but failing) relationship had ended. Yes...I guess you could say that I shouldn't have done that. You would be right, too. The appropriate thing would have been to end it before anything else began but, considering this "perfect man" was in England I didn't do that. My fault on that ENTIRELY. 

   That having been said, I fell anyway. I bought all the lines. I bought all the lies. I believed everything. The wedding arrangements. The location HE picked out and sent me a pic of. The place we would live that HE sent a pic of. The place we would retire that HE sent a pic of. The tattoos we would get. We couldn't decided between the key and heart lock or the king and queen crowns. Decisions, decisions. 

   He became close with my son. Talked of all the things we would do as a family. Like teaching him to drive and play rugby. Hell...we had our animals picked out, too. Gonna get mini pigs and call them "Sid and Nancy". 

   Saying all this you'd probably think I'm bitter. But, honestly, I'm the exact opposite. I'm glad I found out that he was a fake. It kept me from making a horrible mistake. The problem is, and the reason behind this post, is that They (him and her) still won't leave me alone. I get messages all the time from mutual friends letting me know of post being made. The two of them never have the guts to name me by name but it's obvious. Especially when I make a post about him trying to follow me on social media (even though he HATES me) and within 2 minutes she's asking for the screenshot of it. Ridiculous, right? Fucking stupid. 

   This woman is so in fear of losing the man she fought so hard for that she has become obsessed. She never quite realized the fight was with herself. What she started in January of 2015, the pursuit of this man, didn't come to it's conclusion till I found out about her. I know my worth. I don't fight for any man. Never have, never will. I believed his lies about a current relationship that was over but I knew nothing of the other, was it 9 women, who had also believed the same lies. None of us knew about the others but her. I truly believe that's where her fear comes in. That and him still trying to keep tabs on me by following me. 

   The whole thing is dumb as hell. I can only guess the reason for the animosity towards me, the fake accounts (proven), the stalking (proven), is that they are worried about the release of my next book. Do I write about my life...yes. Does it matter if it's good or bad...NO. Hell...I just admitted, in the beginning of this post...that I was in a relationship when this all started. If I'm willing to be honest about my shortcomings why in the hell would I lie about someone else?

   Moral to this story, kiddos. If you are in the paranormal field and have heard anything about me from a certain couple, if you have questions, please ask me. Not only will I be completely honest, even about myself, I have a whole slew of witnesses to back me up on it. We have ALL tried to move on from this. All I have ever wanted to be was left alone. 

   To RB: thank you for the lesson. I wish you well. Please go away now. 
   To KC (aka KB): Many women treated you with respect. We befriended you not knowing the dark nature you hid. Shame on you for knowing the truth and trying to slander other women anyway. 

   P.S. Forget you ever knew me and I will do the same. For the record...all the people you've both hurt have not spoken out about either of you, myself included. Only when prompted by your stalking and harassment did I ever defend myself. You would do well to remember  that. I'm not the only one with screenshots. 

   To everyone else, again, if you have any questions about how I do things or my character, please feel free to contact me. I come with references. 

   Blessed Be )O(



   

Here comes the Po Po!!!!

      My buddy Jana, and I, decided to take a little excursion today. By excursion I mean a wondering through the landscape-y baron back roads of Oklahoma in search of "ghost towns" or abandoned towns" as the internet informed us they were. Well......let me tell you something...

   I looked up the word "abandoned" in the dictionary, just to make sure I was right, and sure enough...it said that the definition was exactly what I though it was. Which is the pickle, people. How can a town be abandoned, even according to our own News (lol) stations, if a whole slew of people live there? Yeah...it had us scratching our head too. 

   But...needless to say...we DID get to see some abandoned buildings in some really shady looking tiny towns. As you will note the pics I uploaded to Facebook, and will upload to Instagram, depict The towns of Ingalls, Oklahoma and Skedee, Oklahoma. 

   Both have actual residents. We even met some! Like the lady who answered her door to me...a stranger...and allowed us on her property to photograph the buildings of Ingalls. I was very happy I didn't have a gun trained on me, at least that I could see, when I walked up her front steps. 

   We got some pretty neat photos and scored a little lovin from her three dogs. Precious lil things they were! We also got numerous "drive-bys" from the local volunteer firemen. I'm guessing those young fellas were quite curious as to our business there so they had to call everyone of them in...in all three of their vehicles...to make sure we weren't "up to no good." **wink wink. 

   After we finished there we decided to head on to Skedee. Let me till you...you haven't lived until you have driven straight into the center of bumfuck Oklahoma with only 10 miles left on your tank. I would swear the clouds parted and the angels wept when we stumbled across a gas station/casino!! Yep...Jana won $9 I lost $5. Tis the way of it, ya know? 

   I lovingly gave my lil ride a drink, to the sum of $10, and we began on our way again. GPS was super sweet to us as it led us to our next destination. You can imagine our surprise when this town had living people in it too!! Where the hell were all the dead folk, I ask you!! (No worries, I'm ok now.)

   Sooooo...we took some pics of the areas that WERE abandoned, and set about our way...again. Lol. However, this time The lady in the GPS thingy decided to be a bitch and simply wouldn't talk to us. We were NOT happy about that but, since Jana and I are seasoned travelers, we knew we had this. And sure enough...it might have taken a minute...but we made it to our next destination....ARBY'S!!!! Damn straight...beef & cheddar, baby!!

   By this time it was getting late and we had one more place to go. We shoved our food down and sped away to Guthrie, Oklahoma. Logan County Memorial Hospital...here we come. Now, we knew we would not be able to get inside. But that didn't bother us. We simply wanted pics. This is where it gets creepy, folks. The story behind this hospital is sketchy. It changed hands many times since 1932. In the 1980's, I believe, it was finally purchased by a group of private developers who planned on turning it into an apartment complex. Ok...that's all good. 

   So why didn't they? The only excuse given was that it fell through. That having been said, they used to allow paranormal teams inside...yet they stopped doing that. Ok...maybe they just changed their minds...no problem there. 

   BUT....

   Here's the weird part. Jana and I got there, parked in a parking lot across the street, and walked over to it. No fence, people. Nothing at all. But we are respectful and simply wanted photos. We were there a total of 10 minutes, at the MOST, before the cops showed up. Yep...the 5-0 rolled up on us. Spotlight and all. Funny thing was about 3 minutes before Jana had noticed a camera in the window, pointing out. Weird, right? Not pointing at the door, but at the street. As the police began walking towards us, we made our way to them. I told them I was an author, cause I am, and that Jana was my photographer, cause she is. The fellas were very nice and just asked us to stay on the sidewalk. No problem there. Nothing kooky about that...until he mentioned the cameras. He said we were "being watched". That it happens all the time. 

   Okaaaaaaaaay...I'm a little freaked now. It wasn't a censor that was set off alerting the police. It wasn't a neighbor who had called alerting the police. It was someone watching us on that camera. I don't know about ya'll, but I'm a little curious about a place that doesn't have a fence, has not been refurbished (possibly due to funds) but has the moolah to equip an abandoned building with high tech cameras PLUS pay somebody to monitor them. A little odd in my book. 

   We spoke of it on the way home and, as soon as I walked my dog, I did a little research.  If this place has been investigated by other teams here why can I not find any pics of the inside? I've looked, trust me. If ya'll find any, let me know. I also found a website that had the link to the webcams that are supposed to be, put in by the owners, so that the public can look for evidence on them. Guess what? I went to the site and I got a big ol' FORBIDDEN at the top of my screen. Yeah.....I'm still scratching my head. 

   Oh...did I mention Jana's camera wouldn't let her take pics of certain areas of the building? Yeah...chew on that for a bit. We will...

   Blessed Be )O(

Not really my game...

      I may tick a few people off with this post, but that is honestly not my intention. Obviously I don't worry too much about that, but still...

  I've seen, all over social media, that it's some "National Ghost Hunting" day. Ok...cool. Always nice to have something to celebrate. I have no problem with that. The only thing that concerns me is the title. I've talked with others about this before, and frankly I'm certain I may have even used the term in the past myself, but I really try not to now. The term "ghosthunter". It really sends an unclear message. A confusing one, if you will.  

   Now...I'm not meaning to be a party pooper, really. But I am curious as to where the term originates from. To hunt something literally means to search for something. Ok...that makes sense...BUT...what do people who hunt normally do when they get whatever they are hunting? 

   They destroy it. Kill it. Use it as a trophy. 

   Kind of like some people in this field. The ones we all want to say "isn't us". The very thing we try to prove, daily, that we don't do. Destroy. 

   There is also the term "paranormal investigator" which literally means to inquire, study, examine. Basically to learn. I would hope that most of us fall into this category. That we truly want to learn, document, share findings. Talk and explore the paranormal in a way that advances it and allows it to grow and be better understood.  I have much respect for those who fall under this category and who back it up by their actions. By sharing evidence with others. Making findings public. Asking for, and honestly wanting, others opinions on their findings. To not take immediate offense when questioned. 

   This is how we grow people. This is how we take this field out of the negative and into the positive. Obviously I'm not condoning negative comments on anyone's evidence. Not by a long shot. What I'm trying to do is open up the line of communication between teams. There is no reason that things can't change. No reason that people can't work towards the greater good...together.

   If you have evidence...post it. If you got an amazing EVP...share it. If you caught some crazy ass pictures...share them. Invite constructive criticism. Hell...the other day I posted an ass load of orb pics knowing full well what some think of the concept. I don't mind. Not one bit. Maybe they know something I don't. Maybe they see something I didn't see. 

   This is what it takes for progress to happen. To be open. How can we expect anything different without that? I would rather work with a team who goes on 100 investigations and gets zilch, and admits it, than one who goes on 5 saying they got the most amazing evidence ever...but you never see it. 

   Blessed Be )O(

Shits about to get REAL.....

   I'm sitting here, typing this with shaking hands, not quite sure how to start. I figure with the beginning is probably the best way to drop a lil truth on anyone who reads this. I hope you're ready for this because I have no intention of mincing words....

   I received a message from someone who needed a second opinion on a reading they got from another individual. I didn't mind, and I had a minute, so I read what they wrote and found myself getting angrier and angrier. In truth I shouldn't have been surprised because I've seen this type of bullshit before but this shocked even me. This person had been told they were cursed. That, basically, their whole family through generations, had been cursed. This "psychic" continued on to say they could "help" them to the tune of several hundred dollars! First off.....

   Are you fucking kidding me???????? Seriously, please tell me this is a joke. Please tell me that I read that wrong. That these bottom feeders have slowly died out and that the paranormal community doesn't have to deal with this any more. That's when reality hit me. They have not died out...they have bred and multiplied! Through "social media fornication" these extortionist have found a way to terrorize people into giving them money. 

   Yes...you heard me right...EXTORTIONIST. For those, and I'm addressing the bottom feeders now, who don't know the definition of the word...extortion simply means to gain property, or money, through force or threats. Well....by telling someone they are cursed, and you can fix it (what a fucking lie), that can be viewed as a threat in the eyes of the law. Did you also know that if this is done via the internet, which means it may cross state lines, it can be viewed as a federal offense? 

   Yeah...how ya liking them apples, chief? Felony...not necessarily a word with any lyrical qualities. Here's something that will make you sing....fines for extortion can be as high as $10,000.00...per offense. Jail time can be as long as 15 years...per offense. Still wanna incite fear in people for money? I sure as hell hope not...

   I'm going to be as clear as I can be when I say this....If anyone reading this is in the habit of practicing this shady business, or any variation of it, unfriend me. Unfriend me on facebook, unfollow me on twitter. Go away. I have worked too damn hard to be known as a trusted sensitive. I say what I mean and I mean what I say. I don't pull punches and I don't lie. I absolutely REFUSE to be associated with ANYONE who believes this practice is acceptable. EVER. At the end of the day I don't give a rats ass if I have a place at the "cool kids" table. Being popular didn't mean anything to me in school and it means even less now. I think I've proven that time and time again. 

   I did not ask this person for the name of the "psychic". I did not want to put that person on the spot. Rest assured...If this information comes my way by any other means....I will call you out on it and not think twice about it. You know why? It's people like you who make this field a fucking nightmare for the rest of us. For those of us who do it because we simply have no other choice. It's our calling. For people like you...whoever you are...it's a paycheck and that's just sick. Do the rest of us a favor and get a real damn job. 

   For the rest of you, and I know there are many good people in this field, keep up the good work. To the psychics who may charge a reasonable fee, but don't try to financially rape  their clients through fear, I got nothing but love for ya. 

   Blessed Be )O(

Three Faces...

   I saw an interesting meme today. Of course I shared it so those who follow me will have seen it already. It was a Japanese quote..." The Japanese believe people have 3 faces. One they show society, one they show family and close friends and one they show only to themselves. The last one being their truest face."

   Heavy, huh? 

   Well, it got me to thinking and I came to this conclusion. The Japanese are definitely wise. I'm not saying this quote is absolutely true in regards to all people but I do believe it leans that way for most...at least at some point in their lives. 

   Don't get me wrong...I totally understand the need to to present yourself as something more evolved, more popular, more intelligent and more "together" than you actually are. I fully appreciate that society has conditioned us to believe that other peoples opinions define our worth. From social media to mainstream media we are bombarded, daily, with standards to live by that are impossible to reach. 

   I'm not the smartest chica out there so I know I'm not the only one who knows this. With that being said..I have one question....

   Why do we still do it? 

   Did I stump ya? Did I? I sure hope not. In fact, I want you screaming at the computer screen RIGHT NOW telling me I'm wrong. For those actually doing that....Momma V is proud of you!!! Not that my opinion matters (see above statement) but, still, my heart beams!!!

   For those taking a minute to ponder the aforementioned question...it's ok...take your time. Really think about it. Does the opinions of people you may never meet really make that much of a difference in the mark you leave on this world? Falsehoods and exaggerations are not contributions to the world. Especially to a world that knows very little that's different. From our news, to the "Reality" shows we watch, to what we are exposed to on the internet media sites. We are being spoon fed a script and we better get it right or no one will like us. 

   No one will care. 

   It's sad, really. I used to follow the same script. I used to do the same thing. I wanted so bad to be accepted that I conformed to a society that went against everything I believed in. Everything I held true. I can't lie to you. Breaking the cycle is hard. One of the hardest things you will ever do. But...in time...you will see it's also one of the most rewarding. When you show who you really are to people, warts and all, you find out very quickly who matters and who doesn't. Who is choosing to stay in your life because they respect you for being YOU. There will never be a time when everyone agrees with you. You will piss people off. You will be left. You will be talked about. You will be shunned. 

   That's ok. You know why? Because one thing people can never call you is a liar. Even if it's done out of the need for self-preservation it's still false. Give it a go. Try out something new. Every time you feel the need to alter yourself to please the public or co-workers or anybody...remember that quote.....and ask yourself this....

   How many faces am I truly comfortable having? 

   Blessed Be )O( 

   

   

Well....we saw this coming, right?

   So...I'm sure everyone has seen the news about that paranormal fella with the show. Ryan Buell? The whole alleged "drug using, cancer lying, money stealing" thing, right? Well....I'm sure you all are waiting with baited breath for my signature sarcastic comments on the subject but...I just can't do it.

    I can't. 

   Fact is...I've never even watched his show. At least not a whole episode of it, I don't think. I maybe saw the first bit of one, years ago, thought to myself "what bull shit" and turned it. Now...I know there are gonna be some haters over that statement and that's okay. I don't mind. We ALL know by now I don't give a rats ass what people think of me as long as their beliefs are based on truth. So...for those who hate me now, that's okay. Got nothing but love for ya. I'm all about supporting honest, free thinking, individuals.

   But I'm still not gonna bash him. In truth, I feel incredibly sorry for him. I feel sorry for the way he may have felt he had to do things. I feel sorry for the people who trusted him and believed in him only to be disappointed.  I feel sorry for his family who will suffer the back lash of whatever media circus is coming to town because of this. But most of all, I feel sorry for the field. 

   Yes...that's right. I feel sorry for all those individuals and teams who go out whenever they can, on their own dime, and spend hours...if not days...in places most people wouldn't give a second thought to. I feel sorry for those who take on the masses and their intense criticism simply for doing what they love. I feel sorry for all those people out there who take these shows as "gospel" when it comes to the paranormal. Last, but not least, I feel sorry for those who secretly want to be him, fiasco and all...simply to get on TV. 

   Ya'll have read me preach till I'm blue in the face in regards to the ego, greed and untruths that this field is littered with. The ever present stain that no amount bleach will dissolve away. This is but just one more scandal, in a field strewn with them, that will set us back years. Just one more reason for people to think it's all about the people DOING the investigating instead of the spirits BEING investigated. Just one more reason for people to think we are all fame and money hungry crazies. 

   Honestly, it pisses me off. It pisses me off knowing that any ground we gain...any respectability within our grasp, could have just been thrown in the trash. 

   When will it end, people? For Goddess sake...when will it FINALLY become clear that WE are not the important part of this equation. Imagine how little ground would have been gained if scientist were more concerned about their image than the illnesses they were trying to cure? I know it's not on the same level but the idea is the same. The only way to get past these embarrassments and move forward is to change the way we do things. Otherwise this cycle will be repeated over and over. Is that really what any of us want? #FOODFORTHOUGHT

Blessed Be )O(