Take it or leave it...

   This is for all the misfits.  The one of a kind wonders.  The square pegs.

   You know I love ya!

   This is a reminder that it's 100% okay to be different.  I know I've told y'all this before but,  if you're anything like me,  you'll need a reminder every now and again.

   Problem is you shouldn't need this reminder in regards to your peers.  You shouldn't have to explain yourself,  or your beliefs,  to those who follow the same passion filled paranormal course that you do.  If nothing else those in the field should understand eccentricities.  Even welcome them as a break from the norm.

   But that doesn't always happen.  I see it every day.  Competition.  Egos.  Picking sides simply to stay in good graces with the cool kids.  It doesn't have to be that way.  I know,  for a fact,  alot of people disagree with the way I do things.  They don't understand my process or what I put myself through in order to get the information I get.  That's ok.  I don't ask anyone to understand.  I don't need the approval of others to continue.  In all honesty I'm as shocked as anyone when someone gives 2 hoots about what I have to say.  Lol.

   True story.

   It amazes me when something I do is well recieved.  I truly don't expect it.  Now....don't get me wrong.  I have my opinions,  too,  on some of the techniques used to obtain evidence out there.  I don't trust alot of it.  I'm old school like that.  Doesn't mean I'm right and others are wrong,  though.  Just means that's my opinion.  I share that opinion when asked but I don't take another down to make my point.  I simply don't have the time to care about it or the energy to do it.

   To put it plain and simple most of us got into the paranormal because of an experience we may have had.  More than likely an experience that ostracized us from society even if only in our own minds.  Alot of us have had experiences that are painful to share.  Even if those people are loved ones.  That is why this community is so important.  It's our safe haven for discussion.  A place we should be able to talk without fear of persecution.  I see,  daily,  how people forget that.  How they expect it for themselves but refuse to give it to others.  This saddens me.....

   Blessed Be )O(

A clean aura is a happy aura...

   A delightful topic was brought up,  on twitter,  today.  One I felt compelled to give my "2 cents" on.  My paranormal peeps who follow this blog will surely know what I'm talking about.  The topic was cleansing which I took to mean post investigation aura cleansing.

   I'm sure some will disagree with the importance of this ritual and that's totally okay.  We don't all have to agree all the time.  Life would be quite boring if we did.  That having been said,  I do believe this is a very important part of a paranormal investigators tasks.

   In many cases we are going into situations where there is negative residual energy if not,  in fact,  intelligent spirits.  Interaction,  good or bad,  leaves its invisible mark on us when we do this.  Not a whole lot different,  really,  than a bad day at work or an irritating traffic situation.  The act of "cleansing" rids us of these negative energies and helps us align our chakras and find peace.  This,  in turn,  helps us to view the situation,  and any evidence obtained,  with a clearer eye and a more open mind.

   Everybody's idea of cleansing is different.  There is NO right or wrong way to do it. Personally,  I have a smoke and quiet time till I can hit a salt bath with some incense and a lil Gregorian chant music.

   Yep..... I'm weird like that!  😄

   I also keep dragons blood oil on me and I tend to meditate quietly,  and quickly,  when necessary.  But this is MY WAY.  Does not have to be yours.  For some they use their religious beiefs and practices to cleanse.  For others it's herbs and silence.  Regardless of what you choose to do,  or how you choose to do it,  the result is the same.  You've cleared out the cobwebs and found some semblance of balance and peace.  Which,  I have to say,  is a far cry better than carrying around the equivalent of someone elses heavy baggage till you finally fall down.....exhausted.......from the load.  Food for thought,  peeps!

   Blessed Be )O(

If people only knew....

   I've done a couple vlogs,  so far,  about my trip to Virginia.  About the paranormal investigations we went on and the effects they had on me and the team.  Those vlogs were short and sweet because I knew I couldn't suppres the tears for too long.  Hell.....you can hear me shivering in the interview I did on Paramania radios "Behind The Open Door".

   Truth is,  people,  I am still shaking.  This IS NOT me.  My dear friend,  Abby Thompson,  even said it didn't look like me in the videos.  That's how much this experience has changed me.

   Will I continue to do what I do?
   YES.
   Will I ever go into an investigation the
   same way?
   HELL NO.

   I have one thing to say to all those people out there begging for physical interaction with a spirit.  All those people provoking and taunting.....daring the unseen to take a shot at them......

   Be very careful what you wish for.  I never,  in a million years,  would have thought things would unfold the way they did..... unprovoked.  We did NOT go into this uninvited.  We did NOT seek it out.  We did NOT try to anger or entice.

   It did NOT matter.  Our fates were sealed before I ever stepped on the plane.  We knew that.  We just had no idea how it would take place.

   So......please.....be very careful in how you do things.  Look out for each other.  Take care of your team mates.  Love them as you do yourself.  You never know.....they may be the difference that keeps you from losing your soul entirely.  Food for thought.....

   Blessed Be )O(

I have no words....

   I started my latest adventure with an open mind.  Wanting to fully experience what Virginia,  and the spirit world,  had to offer.  Everything was perfect.  I had it all planned out and expected few "bumps in the road. "

   Ahhhhhh.....best laid plans,  right?  Um... No....

   From the get go road blocks were thrown in my path.  Intervention,  at it's highest level,  from the powers that be.  They mocked my simple mind,  and wishes,  steering me into another direction.  One that will change my life.

   Forever.

   I have spent the last few days being the voice,  the victim,  the somewhat clumsy protector.  The conduit and the claw.  I've felt pain I once thought impossible.  I've felt love,  joy and remorse.  I've left my own mind to make room for others whom had no other way to speak......to scream. Physically,  and emotionally,  I've pushed myself past any boundaries that may have existed.

   I'm not the same...and I am grateful.

Nuff said....

       I simply have no other choice but to use myself as an example here so that's what I'm going to do.  Maybe...just maybe.....people will finally listen and we can all move on.

   I've been in the "public paranormal eye" for a little over a year now but I've been in the field a helluva lot longer.  I'm 44 years old.  I've spoken with spirits since I was a toddler.  I've seen them for more than a decade.  So.....I actually do kinda know what I'm talking about.  Just because I don't say a whole lot doesn't mean I don't notice EVERYTHING.

   I know,  more than anyone thinks,  exactly what goes on in this field.  I've been the victim of being used,  threatened,  bullied and slandered.  I know how big peoples ego's can get and it's ugly.  I also know how much ground we lose every time people,  or groups,  bash each other.

   Honestly,  people ,  STOP!   Go back,  sometime,  and look at nasty comments you may have left on someones twitter,  facebook or youtube.  But....don't look at it as yourself.  View it, for the 1st time,  as a bystander.  An average Joe.  Really look at it.  Now.... I know you probably think your "not so well thought out" sarcastic comment makes you look more knowledgeable and superior,  right?

   WRONG.

   It doesn't make you look more knowledgeable,  superior or any other mutually ego boosting words you can think of.  Nope sure doesn't.  But.... It does make you look like an asshole.

   Somehow,  someway,  people got the idea that they can only succeed by hoping others fail.  Well.... I'm here to tell you that is the biggest load of bullshit,  ever.  I will finally concede, to some degree,  that I have made a name for myself.  I guess I'm known,  somewhat,  in the field.  It makes my heart happy that any notoriety I have is due to hard work,  honesty and integrity.  I have never stepped on another to gain success.  I have never bashed another to make myself look better.  I have NEVER wished failure on another in hopes it would make my success easier to come by.  Any kudos I've been given I earned.

   My point is that at some point this has to stop.  If we,  as individuals or teams,  are truly doing what we love then we simply will not have time to focus on someone else.  You don't like someones video,  don't watch it 3 or 4 times to simply pick it apart.  You don't believe in orbs,  cool,  move on if someone post a pic about it.  I don't believe everything that scratches me in the dark is a demon.  For those who do.... Okie dokie....that's your thing.

   I'm gonna close with this.......there are NO EXPERTS in this field.

   Period.

   We are ALL learning.  If you think you know it all and have nothing else to learn in this field,  well,  I feel sorry for you and any potential clients you may have.  An ego that big will only be a disservice to all involved.  Food for thought....

   Blessed Be )O(

My happy place

   I was talking with a friend today about meditation and how difficult it can be sometimes.  I've had people tell me,  in the past,  to draw upon a happy memory to find my center.  While that comes across as good advice,  it isn't always possible.  My truly happy memories are few and far between,  at least when I started this journey many years ago.  The birth of my son was probably the only thought that I could truly consider joyful but I was unable to use it for meditation because our connection is so strong if I thought of him he would wake up.  Lol.  True story.  So,  I honestly thought I would never be able to successfully meditate.

   Till it happened completely by accident.  I was at a Samhain retreat one weekend and had just finished a reiki session I desperately needed due to a migraine.  As I climbed into my bunk to rest before the nights drum circle started I began to feel woozy again.  I closed my eyes and prayed for it to stop....but it didn't.  However,  the nausea did lessen as a vision began to form behind my closed eyes.

   Ticking away the seconds,  I started to see the ocean.  Then the sky,  bright blue with clouds drifting by.  I saw land to my left,  the trees bobbing with the motion of the boat I was suddenly on.  Then,  far off in the distance,  I saw a flash of light.  A minute went by and I saw it again.  Then again.  Each time it grew in size and intensity.  It dawned on my I was being led towards something.  Destination unknown.  I watched as this continued and grew brighter.  The flash almost blinding me until I finally realized what it was.

   A lighthouse.

   Through the bobbing of the boat,  and now low hanging clouds,  I watched one last time as it flashed.....and I was out like a light,  pun intended.

   When I woke there was clarity to my thoughts that had not been there before.  Purpose found me through a migraine and indecision.  Through fear of what I might see.  I didn't have to go searching for something to center me and guide me.  It found me.

   My whole reason for telling this is so no one ever thinks this is unattainable.  We are all meant to achieve a higher consciousness.  A better understanding and to function at full capacity.  But this doesn't mean we will all be doing it the same way.  My lighthouse found me when I was ready.  It prepared me to do the same for someone else.

   Blessed Be )O(

Approval not needed....

   I'm a little peeved,  folks,  I gotta say.  I understand we all have opinions on things.  I get it. However......since when did having an opinion give someone the right to belittle or make fun of someone else?  I'm just asking,  here.  A simple little question that I believe deserves an answer.

   My friends,  and myself,  believe in the paranormal.  We are fascinated by it.  We have experienced things , ourselves,  that cannot be explained away.  We like to talk about it and share our stories.  We have even been known to post a meme or two about it.  We're kinda crazy like that.  Go figure.....

   Here's where my "peevedness" comes into play.  You see,  we aren't hurting a damn soul by what we do.  Not one.  Yet.......people seem to think that, by us publicly acknowledging our beliefs,  that we are "fair game".  Persons to ridicule,  or mock.  I'll be honest......  I don't give a rats ass what people say about me.  I know what I know.  I simply don't have the luxury of sticking my head in the sand like alot of people do.  What I DO care about is when others think it's their place to publicly mock or degrade people I care about.  So........ I'm gonna put this in a way that is very easy for people to understand.  Try and follow along,  k?

1) You don't have to agree with us.  We do not require,  nor do we NEED,  your approval.

2) You can keep your sarcastic comments to yourself.  If you choose not to,  well,  you've opened the door to likewise behavior.  You may wanna reconsider.  Just sayin.....

3) It's totally okay to just scroll past a post.  If you cannot find it in your heart to support then it should be equally hard to condem.

   Honestly,  folks,  it truly is that simple.

   Blessed Be )O(